I have an office of my very own, where I can write, dream, draw, paint and create. It is a nice shaped room filled with a desk, printer, file cabinet and row upon row of books. There’s a big window overlooking the lower acreage, filled with tall alders and firs, seeding thistle and a sloping meadow. It’s my retreat place and I love having the space.
There’s just one problem. I’ve filled it with too much. Too many books, interesting articles, notebooks and boxes of research materials, boxes filled with items that should be returned, and more. I had way too much “more”.
Recently, I walked through the door with a story idea and was headed to my computer to write it down. But, when I got to the desk and sat, I was overwhelmed with the sense that I could not write there. What was going on? I’d just been filled with enthusiasm and suddenly I was in the depths of despair and inability.
I was in the presence of too much. It was the tyranny of stuff.
Just being in that space caused my brain and creative juices to shut down. Suddenly I discovered the reason for my recent malaise. No wonder I have felt unable to write lately!
Serendipitously, I had part of the solution within arms’ reach.
My son and daughter-in-law recently downsized. I had acquired a lateral file cabinet from their excess. I had been drooling over cabinets in the last year, but hadn’t made the leap to purchasing one as they seemed out of my price range. And, here was one from my son that fit perfectly in my office space, matching the pocketbook as well!
Next step was to purchase some hanging files and labels and away we go, organizing and sorting that excess. I’m on the way to success! But I sensed that was just part of the solution.
I had not too long ago obtained 12 boxes large and small, of historical records related to my parents and grandparents, helpful for writing that memoir that’s been rattling around in my brain these last few years. My sister had kept them all stored in a closet. Now that I had them, I wanted to keep the material close at hand as I delved into each one to discover the treasures they held. It has been fascinating to read about my ancestors. In some ways, their lives seemed ho hum, but compared to our fast paced modern life, so much has changed. It has been an eye opener to think about life fifty to one hundred years ago. That valuable information has helped flesh out the letters from Dad and moved me closer to figuring out the focus of the memoir. But I digress. Back to my original question, where could 12 boxes fit? You guessed it. Here in my office.
Unfortunately, those twelve boxes have put a serious cramp on the available space. So, I prayed about what to do. I was trusting God would have some thoughts He could breathe into my consciousness with guidance for this journey. Yeah, I could probably think up some ideas without praying about it. But, I’ve found God has been far more accepting and loving toward me than I have been of myself and His vision carried me farther toward my goals than my thoughts alone. So an idea came to mind about the amount of books in my office. Could I change how I store them at least for a period of time? It was an idea worth considering.
When I first created this space, I had moved all my favorite books here. And then as time went on, I added books I’d like to read, then books about writing. Add to the stack books from the library related to research. It added up to a lot of books.
The next idea was to remove all books from the room that were not writing related, and then see what was left. Was there room to put any back? Or, did I need to store some elsewhere? Either way was fine if it helped me with the excess and met the goal, giving me a calm less cluttered space in which to write. I have been still in process with the idea. But, I am hopeful this dragon can be slayed!
It has been hard to let go of the old and let in the new.
Besides God’s loving, accepting care, I have found the most help in solving problems to be focusing on my goals.
My current goals included writing a memoir, keeping track of bills to pay for the household and storing tax related documents. I also liked to keep for future reference any interesting article or story that I had come across. My interests included hiking, painting, cooking, family and how-to projects. I also liked to collect story ideas and had recently been inspired, a.k.a. prodded, to start submitting stories and articles to publishing houses that need them.
Being aware of my goals has helped me pair down the excess. I’ve come a long way from thinking I didn’t have much to contribute to this world to realizing God put me here for His reasons. I needed to respect what His purpose was for me and seek His ways. The experiences I have gone through have strengthened and changed me. I want to speak up and let my voice be heard.
How about you? Do you struggle with excess stuff, too? It is not too late to try. Each day has new opportunities for success.
I hope you will take the time to figure out what your goals are for this life and give yourself the opportunity to go for it!